My goodness. I skipped a month. A whole month!
I started working at a middle school and it’s been…
Interesting?
Horrifying?
Tedious?
Yeah. The district I work for is ‘going through some stuff’. Staff changes, closing an entire school down, shuffling students, blah dee blah blah. Everyone is STRESSED. It’s very stressful to not know what the hell is going on at any given moment and yet be expected to show up for work where you’re getting paid peanuts to deal with young feral hyenas. Maybe just hyenas? Feral makes them sound interesting and middle school kids are, um, all desperately trying to be exactly like each other. Which is akin to a boring reality show focused on foot wear. Sure, there are bright moments and funny little incidents and times when you’re not watching the clock because school gets out in fifteen days or whatever the current count down is, you betcha.
Of course, at the other school I used to work at– there are racial slurs being thrown around and the fourth graders decided it was ‘r@pe week’. Kids were shouting it and saying it and generally spreadin’ it around. Not even kidding. I got this earful from the teacher in charge of Special Ed at that school. I’d already heard about the N word being dropped with a sickening casual ease but not the r@pe week reference. I just.
Yeah.
So! It’s been cold here. As in frost in the mornings kinda cold and sorta looks like it could snow skies. We did get some heavy rain and fast winds, but since Eastern Oregon/Western Idaho remains in a rain shadow despite a leftist push…sorry. Politics is cray cray, as they they say, so it permeates everything like dirty oil.
I still haven’t gotten my deposit back from the Strat. I need to call. I remember trying to deal with this at the Red Lion.
Been catching lots of mice. The birds are building nests. The four dogs are doing okay, but they are a bit touchy now and then. The cat hates the dogs, but they do chase her.
I’m barely writing. I’m just empty and exhausted and wondering if a steady paycheck and health care is worth my mental health. I’m home today because the thought of going to work had me in tears. I’m also eating way too much, which triggers blah blah.
Anyhoo. Hope all is well with the peeps that might read this and hope they are having a better spring than moi. Smooches! Might hear back from me in July, but I make no promises.